Oy.

A lot going on in my head.

I don't want to leave, but I know that I can't really stay here (though I keep having to explain/convince myself and others of that). I'm getting tired of talking myself into going back to Florida, because I know I'd be happier here.

But alas, money, family, gas prices, toll roads, and responsibility are pushing me in that direction, and who am I to argue?

I must just make the best of the next couple days. I must see movies, and see friends, and eat good food, and enjoy good company.

I must not let my downer mood affect anyone else, and indeed, I must stop it from affecting my own enjoyment.


Things that make me feel better:
- A possible July/August camping weekend in Michigan, in which Deerfield folks will drive over, and I will fly up, and we will all meet Pat and have a fun little outdoors reunion.
- The possibility of coming back here for part of Winter Break.
- The possibility that someone/some people will visit me in Florida.

While those things have very low chance of happening, they would buffer the time between now and a year from now (my current date of return to the Midwest). A spark of hope is better than nothing.