I was so busy that I barely got a chance to think, let alone a chance to start feeling miserable.
Except during theatre. When I was going to ask if I could miss rehearsal tonight but before I could do that Carl said that too many people were coming up and saying "oh, I can't make it this day, or this day" and that that was unacceptable. So I decided to not even try.
But it upset me. Because I felt like I had a good reason.
And so even though I had today as a conflict for Dance Show and didn't have to be there, I stayed after school until rehearsal and went to rehearsal. Which sucked. And I should be "reviewing my lines every night" like the rest of the cast.
Because I don't have enough to deal with, or anything.
But whatever. It was my choice to do the Spring Play and Dance Show. And homework isn't really a problem. I didn't quite choose to have people that I care about die, but that's another story, I suppose.
*sigh* So basically I was just constantly busy all day. And even as I got in the car at 8:35 I though "hey, there's still 25 minutes of shiva tonight". But I wasn't dressed nicely (or anything resembling nice. I look like a slob) and by the time I would get there, I'd have about 15 minutes. Maybe I'll be able to make it tomorrow.
I'm so tired. I'm so stressed. I'm so upset.