I've decided that becoming a mere spectator for more of your harsh moments is just not enough anymore, therefor I am going to be a commentator as you have for me. I'm not sure to whom you are refering the meanness, I hope for his sake that it's not Garvey, and believe me I've felt the same way before. I used to have a lot of people who would treat me like shit because I'd let them and because it felt like my assigned role in the group, you know the bitch, but I think it's more like the mother role here. Perhaps it's almost ironic that you hate your mother so, and yet you seem to personify that lovable mother role...ironic might be to good for a different situation, this is more along the lines of not wanting to be like your mom. But that is fine, this has nothing really to do with that. What you should realize is that no matter how they treat you or what shit you are seemingly forced to take that there is always someone there who will help you, had I gone I assure you I would have been in that role, sadly sometimes you have to rely on the knowledge that most people don't see that their behavior was wrong until way after the fact. Just let them know, and let them know big time, what the fuck they did wrong. Yawm, it's getting late, I hope that this helps but it might not...if it doesn't I'm usually good with advice stuff, just ask me.