I suppose I should be doing something with my life and I'm not.
I feel like I'm distancing myself from my friends, even though I see them everyday. I'm online all the time, for some reason I just keep AIM on, but half the time I don't want to talk to anyone. There are a few people that I enjoy talking with, but they aren't Nikki or Candace who IM me everyday.
Why not just turn it off? I don't know.
Usually when I realize that there is something wrong with me, or something bothers me, I try to fix it. But recently I have been finding errors and not knowing what to do with them. Should I try and make myself want to be overly social again?
I'm too good at small talk. It's the deeper, more intellectual shit that I need now. And Allie's in Alaska for three week. There are other people I like to talk to, but they are seemingly unavailable, or not at interactive as I would hope. I like conversation rather than me talking to someone without feedback.
I want in depth. All I get is trivial.
I still don't think I know who I am anymore.