Gail (gailmarie) wrote,
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When you're weary, feeling small, When tears are in your eyes, I will dry them all

Often times I post, and it's more like a "here's a look at what's going on in Gail's life" in a play-by-play commentary, rather than anything that would belong in a journal.

Sure, I occasionally have those entries that really define a journal, and that really reach insight, though usually it's just "Then I took a shower. Yay."

However, if ever there was an insightful entry that has a right to be in a journal about my life, this one would be it.

I had decided to go to bed, and lying there a little over an hour ago, I remembered that Allie had written me a letter over Spring Break in response to the plane letter I gave her before she left. Having had no luck sleeping, I get up, turn on lights and find the letter.

There are times when I forget how much my friends mean to me, and there are times I forget why Allie is my best friend in the entire world, and then I read something as trivial as a letter, and I end up in tears. There was nothing overly important in the written words, as far as plot, but I had written about doubts I had. Fears and regrets, confusion and random thoughts of a teenaged girl, ninth period before Spring Break. And she responded with three pages of encouragement and insight and help and love that just overwhelms me. It's not like she was even trying to do something nice or go out of her way. She just decided to comfort me and being one of the only people to truly know me, inside and out, better than anyone else that I know, she could understand me.

Immediately I found a pen and paper in a desperate need to write back. Again, nothing of immense substance, but my thoughts that always come back to me, filtered and making sense. She ended her letter with lyrics from the song "The Rose" by Bette Midler, and I shall end mine with "Bridge Over Troubled Water" because that's how I feel. That she is just always there for me, no matter how school and sports and life may interfere and distance us.

God, right now I'm tired, but feel amazing. I guess it was just one of those "right time, right place" things because I had begun to feel extremely distanced from most of the people in my life. We are all just too busy and I hate that. But maybe my dreaded month of April will prove helpful is stopping that.

Bridge Over Troubled Water
When you're weary, feeling small,
When tears are in your eyes, I will dry them all;
I'm on your side. When times get rough
And friends just can't be found,
Like a bridge over troubled water
I will lay me down.
Like a bridge over troubled water
I will lay me down.

When you're down and out,
When you're on the street,
When evening falls so hard
I will comfort you.
I'll take your part.
When darkness comes
And pains is all around,
Like a bridge over troubled water
I will lay me down.
Like a bridge over troubled water
I will lay me down.

Sail on silvergirl,
Sail on by.
Your time has come to shine.
All your dreams are on their way.
See how they shine.
If you need a friend
I'm sailing right behind.
Like a bridge over troubled water
I will ease your mind.
Like a bridge over troubled water
I will ease your mind.
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