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Family...the other white meat...

My dad is back from his golf vacation (...I think. He's sleeping already, so I haven't actually seen him.)

Mommy is still mommy. *sighs*

Cici, Dave, Emily, Em's husband Tom, and Dave's fiancee Katie came to see Sound of Music tonight. Yay! We went to On The Border after.

Fayanne went with Brad to Florida for Spring Break. They leave tomorrow at 2am...so 2 hours from now. They couldn't come up to see the show. A little disappointed, but at least the rest of my siblings did.

Tomorrow's audience will be five more people. I think it's Mama, Dad, my Grandma, Aunt Judy and maybe my Aunt Donna? I don't really know. I don't think Mom knows either.

< rant >
A smaller depressing note: So I have to be in the show to get an audience? Stage Managing and running the ENTIRE SHOW is less important than a two-scene ensemble role??
< /rant >

But I'm in a pretty good mood, which is MUCH improved from earlier in the evening when the only thing that kept me from crying was that I would ruin my makeup. *sighs* Some days are just harder than others, you know?

I'm going to get out of these damn pantyhose. It was dress up day to promote the show, so I've been in a skirt all day. Eeep.


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Mar. 9th, 2002 06:56 am (UTC)
Honey. We all love you. Mom is just twisted.

But you know what? I think I figured part of it out. I had a revelation the other day. I really think that mom is going through a selfish phase. She is trying very hard to be the open, caring, giving person she always was, but inside I think she really wants to just run away from everyone (except maybe Judy) and just have a whole lot of "me" time. She got a little taste of freedom with Dad gone, Zoe and I finally out of the house, and you being so independent (and extremely busy). I think the divorce is going to be coming quickly.

Anyway. That was my thought. She is getting selfish. Which, if you think about it, after raising 5 kids and giving so much time and money to us and miscellaneous other relatives, she does deserve. Just, she needs to wait another year and couple months until you are off to college.


And the parents (or at least one) have been to almost everything. The rest of the family, not having been in crew, don't really understand what goes on behind-the-scenes and would never fully relish how fantastic you are.
Mar. 9th, 2002 08:19 am (UTC)
Re: {{{Gail}}}
I was going to add a note that you and Dave have seen almost all of them, and I appreciate that so much. And dad too. And Fayanne comes to any of them that she's home for.

I guess my problem is just mom. And less of "who comes to the play" than "how many tickets does she buy". Usually four. This time 10.

And I was more proud of STUNTS than anything else this year. I loved Heidi and the work I put into it, but with STUNTS, I was on board and working on it for about 5 months. And with being Stage Manager, I had to run everything during Tech week and the show. I was at the top and it was like MY show.

But I understand that a lot of people value acting as more prestigious, or whatever. And besides, it's Sound of Music. Who hasn't seen (or at least heard) of it? We've had a bigger audience on every night than those that came for Mame or Pippin, just because they aren't as well known.

I'm probably just being as selfish as she is. Granted I'm still a child (contrary to popular belief sometimes) and that's sort of allowed, I probably shouldn't place so much importance on things like this. I guess I just don't really like that the family seems to be coming apart. People moving away, getting married, getting divorces, whatever. Sometimes I wish I could be 5 again, when everyone lived at home, and mommy made nice breakfasts on Saturday mornings.

But thus is life. It changes, and although gradual, it sometimes hits you as though you haven't been realizing it. Not worse, but not better. Just different. And I sometimes have problems with that. I try to hold on to the past too much sometimes, then get upset when things change. But there's nothing I can do, so I just have to accept what happens, and try to adjust to live normally.
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