February 22nd, 2008

Smoked the Last One

I could use another cigarette...

This is possibly TMI, but I woke up at 5:45am (an hour and a half before my alarm was set to go off) with ridiculously bad cramps. Lovely.

And perhaps some people would have been able to go back to sleep, but after popping a couple Advil I could see that sleep wasn't going to happen for me.

I decided to be productive and "just for fun" research some museums and possible internship programs for after I graduate.

Now granted I'm a little fatigued from lack of sleep and just now feeling relief in my nether regions, but it was entirely disheartening and possibly a little soul sucking.

A vast majority of the internships are unpaid (including the Musée d'Orsay, I checked). Of the ones that are paid, most want enrollment in a Master's program. Some even require being a PhD candidate. And one I found that seemed PERFECT...the application deadline was January 17th.

Not to mention that it all started me panicking because I have a terrible resumé with no real world experience and only 2 decent personal references.

So now I'm seriously concerned that I'll never be able to find a job, either within my field or without and I'm going to be in debt up to my eyeballs.

I think this is the part in life where one sinks or swims. And I still don't know how to swim.
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Under this national rain cloud, I'm getting soaked to the skin...

So I always have a cup of water on the nightstand by my bed. Always. Every day for the past 6 months, at least (last year I had mostly water bottles, but I'm sure there were times I had open glasses).

6 months and I have never knocked my water over.

This week?

I've knocked my water over TWICE.

What the hell?

If that's not a bad omen, I don't know what is.

Today is shaping up to be just awesome.

I think I'm going to go hide away in a movie theater for several hours...
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So last week, Discovery Channel aired a show called "Dinosaurs Return to Life." I, being an uber geek and ridiculously huge Jurassic Park fan, scheduled my TiVo to record it immediately after seeing the commercial.

Anyway, it was really interesting (and if you can catch it in a reair, I'd recommend it).

It was far less about engineering dinosaurs of the past and far more about the genetic similarities and make up of birds and dinosaurs. They looked specifically at controlling certain genes in birds to give a longer tail and teeth (because the genes to do so are in the DNA, they are just dormant until provoked by enzymes, proteins or whatever...I'm no expert). So the scientists stimulated the dormant genes at a certain time and noted teeth or tail developing in the embryo (essentially, making mutants out of them).

They theorized that they could also replace the feathers with scales and wings with hands.

While they wouldn't be able to make a raptor or anything like that, they could engineer an emu to have dinosaur qualities and it would resemble actual dinosaurs from 70 million years ago.


But it got me thinking about genetic mutation and what they could do for human subjects (something I doubt they would try anytime within this century), but could they give us tails? Or opposable toe-thumbs...so we can use our feet like hands? It's in our genes.

And that brings up a lot of questions about mutations and genes and DNA.

As a side note (and I'd delve more into it later when I have the time). while one scientist predicted that an engineered dinosaur/bird thing might be possible in 50 years, I have some serious doubts that human civilization will still be around in 50 years. Honestly.