I'm up to early.
And I've lost my CD binder. The huge 208 CD black monstrosity that is impossible to lose. Dammit, I wanted to listen to Dixie Chicks in my room. But no.
I'm already looking forward to Allie's party tonight.
And I don't feel hatred toward my mother today. Huh. Maybe I'm passed that stage? Or every once in a while I get a day off.
Oh right. And happy 4th of July. Woo.
I'm so antsy. I want something to do. It's so early. I wish I had my CDs. I wish Allie was up. Starbucks should totally be open right now. I should totally have friends. I hate parades. They are annoying. I'm so bored. It's frickin' cold down here. To make matters worse, I was reading old entries from last summer. Stupid girl = me. I wish I had something to do. A direction. An aim. A goal. Something to accomplish. I wish my feet weren't freezing. I wish I could wear slippers, but my nails are still tacky. I hate feeling abandoned. It's worse that just being lonely. I'm craving someone. I was talking to Becca yesterday and realized a few things about myself. Really good, true friends are hard to find. I love mine, I just wish I could see them more. "The moon is full, my arms are empty." Dixie Chicks rock. But they put me in such a [insert that word that I'm searching for here] mood. I suppose I wouldn't listen to them if I didn't want to be though. Or rather, I am...so it's comforting. Oy, Gail needs sleep. College is too far away. College is way too soon. Meh.
Nothing to do until 6:30...when I can go to Allie's.
I talked to Allie on the phone for an hour and 50 minutes, and in that time, I FINALLY figured out how to get my school email to work in Outlook.
I've been trying to figure it out for like a month.
And it took me about an hour and a lot of researching stuff, but I finally got it!! All on my own!!!!
Then I started Thank-You cards for my graduation party. Only got 5 done before the family returned and I quit. They were the important 5 though. The ones who gave $100. So I could sent those out early and say "screw everyone else, you'll get yours eventually..."
Yeah. I totally work better alone. When the parents leave for a weekend, I always get cleaning and laundry done. When they are here, I just slack off.
So now I'm going to shower. Party.
Just got back from playing Settlers with Jason, Kay and Candace.
I have been so meh all day.
I need something. There is something missing. I need to fill in a piece. Or I'm going to continue to fall apart.