November 20th, 2002


I'm here without you baby, but you're still with me in my dreams


Interesting day.

Still no Secret Turkey gifts. Adam and I are the only two whose Turkeys have been negligent. >:-O I don't care so much about what they get me, but it hurts to not get anything. Like an orphan on Christmas.

Made macaroni and cheese outside in Outdoor Adventure. Gotta love outdoor cooking!

Did a presentation in APES. It sucked a lot, so I'm just praying he grades kindly.

No crew again, so I'm home.

Got a piece of mail from Indiana University. I was accepted for the Direct Admit Program.

Congratulations on your outstanding academic achievements to date, and on your acceptance to Indiana University! Based upon your academic record and your interest in majoring in Theatre and Drama, you are invited to take advantage of the Direct Admission into the College of Arts and Sciences.

Cool. The letter goes on. Apparently the requirements are an ACT score of at least 29 [nope, I got a 28], top 10% of class [eh, I'm about at 15%, though at DHS, that's pretty damn good. Hell, my GPA is 3.7], or you demonstrate interest and achievement in a particular area. Damn fucking straight.

Double cool. Makes me feel all special and important and smart.

I may as well do this. It doesn't commit me to IU yet, and I'm going to be in the College of Arts and Sciences anyhow. Same division even...Arts and Humanities. I applied Theatre, but could change to English.


I really want to go to IU. Badly. Hmm...maybe I'll start checking out student loans. Gotta love being in debt for the first 10 years of your adult life.


'Tis all, my fine feathered friends.
  • Current Music
    Here Without You - 3 Doors Down

A thousand lights have made me colder and I don't think I can look at this the same

Daddy's going to the UP of Michigan for Thanksgiving with my Aunt Denise (and uncle, cousin and grandma).

Mommy's going to Florida with Cici.

Fayanne's going to be in Central Illinois for Thanksgiving with Brad's family.

Emily and Tom are having our "family" dinner...which will be attended by them, about 5 members of Tom's family, Dave and Katie, and myself.

It's nice how families get together for the holidays.

And as of yet, we don't have a Christmas get-together planned either.


I bet I could ask some of my friends and they would adopt me for their family celebration. I just don't like the idea of being the youngest one at a dinner that's only half my family and the other half is Tom's.

Silly holidays. Always getting people down.
  • Current Music
    Here Without You - 3 Doors Down (always....)

You don't need to bother, I don't need to be

It just occurred to me that I might want to watch some of the things I say in here.

This happens upon me after I went to Eric and Phatty's sites, both of whom have blogs up.

And I know that Allie said she was reading my journal recently. And anyone who reads Peter or Zack's could easily get to mine.

Eh, so much politics. And I hate to censor myself. And I've had so many locked posts this month. It's insane.

Whatever. If people don't like what they read or get offended, then they can either suck it up, bite me, or not read.


The parents went to Panera for dinner. They are bringing me home some soup in a bread bowl. I've sworn off going anywhere in public with them. Or at least with my mother. Especially when I'm in states like this where I'd probably be so unhappy that I'd end up crying silently in the car. Pure hell.

*sigh* And Charlie called me my mother the other day. Bitch.

Though even I have to admit a few similarities. Like how she wishes that this year's Florida trip could be like the past few years. I feel like saying "That's the past and you can't look back on it!!" when obviously I need the same advice. Me and my "I need a family for Thanksgiving."


My playlist:
3 Doors Down - When I'm Gone
Chevelle - The Red
Eminem - Cleanin' Out My Closet
Nirvana - You Know You're Right
Incubus - Pardon Me
Rufus Wainwright - Hallelujah
Stone Sour - Bother
Sugarcult - Pretty Girl
3 Doors Down - Here Without You
Taproot - Poem
Our Lady Peace - Somewhere Out There
TRUSTcompany - Downfall

I need to be at school before 7:15 tomorrow for AWARE picture. Crew is at 7:35.

I checked my voice mail for the first time in weeks. 2 messages, from two of my Aunts wishing me a happy birthday. It's amazing how tired everyone sounds. Life has chewed us up and spit us out. Everyone is so worn out.

I wish I could make everyone happy.
  • Current Music
    Bother - Stone Sour

It goes like this: the fourth, the fifth, the minor fall, the major lift

or "DUDE! You're Getting A Dell!"

I have a master plan to ensure that I get a PowerBook...eventually.

So my mother is horribly addicted to Spider Solitaire. In fact, I was just kicked off the new computer [->] so she could play.

However, that computer is supposed to be coming with me to college. (Big honkin' piece of PC crap.)

SO! Since I can't take this dying computer with me. And I can't take that one or she'll go through horrible Spider Solitaire withdrawl...I can just get a new PowerBook instead!


And $3000 later...
  • Current Music
    Hallelujah - Rufus Wainwright (in head)