October 24th, 2002


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It's funny how you can get the same amount of sleep every night for a week...but one night you actually feel rested.

I feel good this morning. The past three, I've been wanting desperately to sleep through my alarm.

Maybe it was the good dream vibes... ;-)
  • Current Music
    Dirait-on (a chorus song...in head)

I didn't recognize you without the handcuffs

liz_w is a goddess. Most definitely.

My kitty is so cute. She's sleeping on my coat and just looks all cuddly and warm. So sweet!!

School went well. I like my English class because we usually spend the first 10 minutes or so talking about important things. Today was the Fall Play (yay publicity) and the snipers.

Then we had the performance in the middle of the day. It went really well also. We have been very consistent with our shows, and it's really nice to know that things are so solid. It makes it easier to deal with problems if they come along. The first half though (when I'm not really doing anything) I was sort of day-dreaming...about, not surprising...the dream I had last night. Hee!

APES was a joke as usual. It was a great class day and a lot of it was spend laughing. My table has a lot of fun...more than we should. And Doc brought us Dunkin Munchkins and told us that our required service hours were being brought down from 6 to 4. I already have 4 hours done, so I'm set for the quarter! Sweet!!

Theatre...I spent the class time talking with Eric while the kids worked on their scenes. They are having a Game Day tomorrow, but I'll miss it for the last Freshman performance. Monday we start feedback for their scenes. Oh happy joy.

Now I'm home. Daddy's installing a new faucette and subsequent plumbing in the kitchen. He had to go to 7 different hardware stores and Home Depot 3 times to get all the supplies. Poor daddy. :-(

I have until 5:30 before I need to leave for school, so I could nap again. In fact, I might...take after my kitty, and all. :-)

First though...a few songs that would be on the Soundtrack of my Life:
-She Talks to Angels, The Black Crowes
-Hopeless, Train
-Iris, Goo Goo Dolls
-Leave, Matchbox Twenty
-Goodbye to You, Michelle Branch
-Bad Day, Fuel
-Round Here, Counting Crows
  • Current Music
    Light My Candle - SEBASTIAN!!!!!!!

And I'd say it on the phone, if I thought you were alone

Was at Colorgenics again.

My mood hasn't changed in the past 4 weeks (I'm still "overwhelmed") but my present situation certainly did.

Your Present Situation: Your present situation is making it difficult to relax. You feel a need to be constantly observant, watching everything that is going on around you. This makes it difficult for you to let your hair down and be spontaneous. You are not comfortable with the barrier that you have created around yourself and would love to breakout in a completely new way.You want to escape a stressful situation in your life but are afraid of the consequences. You worry that if you make changes you will be worse off. In a sense you are torn between your need to break out and the risks to your security that any changes might bring.

Yearning. My mood is yearning. This song makes me yearn.
  • Current Music
    Hopeless - Train

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I'm wearing brown boots with a black skirt.

I'm surely going to hell for this, but ask if I care?
  • Current Mood
    a little bit late-ish

And I don't want to go home right now

Well....I am home.

The show this evening went okay. There were a few errors, some things I would have hoped to go better. But no "mistakes" per se. Nothing anyone can do consciously to fix, other than just doing what they are supposed to.

I don't think that made sense, though I don't think I make much sense right now.

So I'm going to shower...maybe grab a snack and then probably get to bed early. I'm tired and never got in that nap before the show.
  • Current Music
    Iris - Goo Goo Dolls
Baby you're a big star now

And I'd give up forever to touch you

Songs that have been stuck in my head in the past 24 hours:

If you see me walking down the street and I stop to cry each time we meet...walk on by. "Walk on By" - Gloria Gaynor [sang this Freshman year for Choral Awards Concert]

One of us is changing, or maybe we've just stopped trying. And it's too late baby, now it's too late. - "It's Too Late" - Carole King [Four Stories Tall soundtrack...sophomore year Spring Play]

Talk to me and I'll tell you my life story. Walk with me and I'll tell you my dreams of glory. "There We Are" - James Taylor [Same as above]

Sometimes people leave you, halfway through the wood. Others may deceive you, you decide what's good. You decide alone, but no one is alone. "No One is Alone" - Into the Woods [From my most recent Broadway explosion]

Sooner or later it's over, I just don't want to miss you tonight. "Iris" - Goo Goo Dolls [There are no words to describe the perfection that exists in these lyrics...]

I've had a few more, but they slip my mind. Right now, it's mostly those first few songs...the 50's and 60's ones that are really prevalent. Great time for music. A little hokey, but true none the less.
  • Current Music
    Pick one...any one...

And I've been afraid of changing cause I built my life around you

(Email wisdom before bed. I got this a while ago, but just re-read it now...)

Have you ever loved someone and they had absolutely no idea whatsoever? Or fell for your best friend in the entire world, and then sat around and watched him/her fall for someone else? Have you ever denied your feelings for someone because your fear of rejection was too hard to handle? We tell lies when we are afraid...afraid of what we don't know, afraid of what others will think, afraid of what will be found out about us. But every time we tell a lie...the thing we fear grows stronger.
Have you ever noticed that the worst way to miss someone is when they are right beside you and yet you can never have them...when the moment you can't feel them under your fingertips, you miss them? Have you ever wondered which hurts the most; saying something and wishing you had not, or saying nothing and wishing you had? I guess the most important things are the hardest things to say. Don't be afraid to tell someone you love them. If you do, they might break your heart...but if you don't, you might break theirs.
Have you ever decided not to become a couple because you were so afraid of losing what you already had with that person? Your heart decides who it likes and who it doesn't. You can't tell your heart what to do. It does it on its own...when you least suspect it, or even when you don't want it to.
Have you ever wanted to love someone with everything you had, but that other person was too afraid to let you? Too many of us stay walled because we are too afraid to care too much...for the fear that the other person does not care as much, or that life is all about risks and it requires you to jump. Don't be a person who has to look back and wonder what they would have, or could have had.
  • Current Music
    Landslide - Dixie Chicks