August 13th, 2002


You wanna play? Let's runaway...we won't be back before it's Christmas Day


Pissed that my last entry had a cut text that did not read what I wrote. I was thinking it was too long, but I edited it and it still says "Read more..."

Uh...nope. I was trying to discourage readers, and that is obviously inviting. Bitches.

Tonight was fun. Got lectured a bit. Was a bit offended when one part was almost directly toward me. Actually, was toward me, with a caution toward others. Whatever.

We still have fun. And yes, despite the fact that we will all be Seniors, we were throwing spitballs and other such nonsense. It's also cool because everyone there is friends. Whether we met through crew, or brought other friends into it, we are all friends. So we all went back to Nikki's afterward.

Had more mature behavior, with wrestling, dancing, laughing and all good stuff. My mood has gotten infinitesimally better than it was before.

Yes, I realize I'm jumping around a lot here. I'm sleepy.

Everyone basically left Nik's at 11 for curfew, but Charlie and Zoe stayed (cause I told them I would drive them home later) and their parents let them stay out until 12.

So yeah. Fun. A bit of turmoil, but I'm avoiding that situation like the plague.

Tomorrow is the Jethro Tull concert. Don't really want to go. It's just going to be Nikki, Caitlin, Rob, Amanda and I. Eek. Hopefully I'll be in a good mood, or things could get yucky...quickly.

Oy. Tomorrow also Lewis leaves. And Jason should be coming back.

I forgot about my senior pictures and it turns out proofs were due back today. Eek. So I'll have to do that tomorrow too.

And Mama really wants me to go to Western. It turns out my dad can't, so she wants me there. I still don't want to. And I may have made plans for Wednesday night. I forget what they are right now...but it was something...


So tired that I've been squinting while writing this, just to keep my eyes open. I'm thinking I should get to bed now.
  • Current Music
    Out Tonight - RENT

Without you, they eyes cave, the legs walk, the lungs breathe


FUCK IT!!!!!



Basically, it's fucking hot out. It was 90 a few days ago, which was good. It felt fine. But now it's only 80, but humid as hell.

FUCKING gross out.

Severe Thunderstorm watch out until 6pm. Supposed to rain all night.

Seeing Jethro Tull on the lawn.

Fuck. Don't want to go. Rain is a good excuse too.

Sent out Senior picture order and proofs. Unfortunately I didn't realize that they provide an envelope with a special barcode that probably makes their lives easier. So I didn't use that. And apparently I didn't have enough postage either...just hoping it goes though.

Dammit. Now I'm in a bad mood. Fuck the weather. Fuck the photos. Fuck everything.
  • Current Music
    Without You - RENT

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So very tired.

I just napped. Probably for about an hour.

The weather has improved, so my attitude has done the opposite. Damn sun.

Decided not to go to Jethro Tull. Will still pay Amanda. Nikki backed out also. Caitlin too? Zoe was going the last time I talked to Manda, though. I feel bad, but I'm not in the mood.

So yeah. Right now I'm just very groggy.

And I don't want to go upstairs. Because the parents are there. And I will have to say that I decided not to go to the concert and they'll ask if I want to go to the hair appointment tonight. Definitely don't want to do that. Mama will ask me about Western. Which I still don't want to go to, and still feel guilty about.

So I'm staying in my hole. Which is a bit hot because the air was turned off when it got cooler outside. Then the rain stopped and the humidity came back, and it's basically hell on earth. I can stand heat. 90+ is not a problem for me. But humidity is just gross and I hate it.
  • Current Music
    Santa Fe - RENT
Alanis - Unsexy

Why do we love when she's mean? And she can be so obscene


So very bored.

And I have a bunch of friends around, so if I wanted to expel the effort, I could create a group gathering.

But again. That would take effort.

Like the songs "Life Support" and "Another Day".

Blah blah. This is me leaving to do something...well, not productive. But. Not this?
  • Current Music
    Tango: Maureen - RENT

At least the room stopped spinning, anyway

Still like this song a lot.

And the best part is that "One Song Glory" comes right after on my playlist. And for whatever reason I ADORE that song.

For the record, I just spent a very long time crying. Very long time. Now that it's all out, I feel calm and exhausted.


I should go to bed soon.
  • Current Music
    Light My Candle - RENT