August 12th, 2002

Alanis - Unsexy

Just haven't eaten much today, at least the room stopped spinning anyway

Very tired.

Woke up a bit ago after going to bed at midnight.

So I got sleep. But it never feels like enough. I'm exhausted and my back hurts. I want to go back to bed, but it doesn't feel like I'd be able to. And I hate just laying in bed thinking.


So I'm up. And tired.

And appropriately, my away message is and has been:
If I'm not sleeping...I should be.
I'll see you on the dark side of the moon.

It really doesn't mean anything, but hey. I'm not sleeping. I should be. It's staying up.
  • Current Music
    Light My Candle - RENT
Baby you're a big star now

Ooooo...only thing to do is jump over the moon...


I've got quite a bit to do this week.

Tonight is the first of two crew meetings. This one is only for Seniors. We are being lectured about leaving a legacy...connecting with lower classes. Making the crew feel whole, like it was when we joined 4 years ago. It's fallen apart since.

I can see that validity in this. It's a good idea, getting to know younger classes. But at the same time, this is a load of bullshit. A lot of people (including myself) are rolling their eyes at this. I back it, of course. Because it is a good idea. And due to my position on the crew, I need to support it. So I do. I need to defend it and believe in it, to a certain extent. So I will.

But that doesn't mean that it's not bullshit.

Tomorrow I'm seeing Jethro Tull at Ravinia.

Wednesday and Thursday, I'm helping to move my cousin to college.

Friday night is the other crew meeting.

Allie's coming back from Door County this weekend sometime. Carly should have gotten back yesterday, but I haven't heard from her yet. Jason's getting back tomorrow, but leaving again next weekend...only for about 4 days though.

Still haven't planned college visits. It's getting a bit late in the game too. I may have to worry about applications for schools I haven't seen yet. Oy.

I think if I keep thinking about all this shit, I'll give myself an I'm stopping. Oy.
  • Current Music
    Over the Moon - RENT
Alanis - Unsexy

And if I'm never tied to anything, I'll never be free

I just like this song. I've been changing the subject line every time he says something else that I think is awesome. I settled on the basic...

Gotta love Pippin.

Oh, and I took a break from Into the Woods (because I was too lazy to put it back into the CD player after I took it out). So I was listening to RENT mp3s, but I didn't have many. So this morning I put in Pippin (and Into the Woods) while I downloaded more.

My CDs should get here Thursday or Friday...depending on what the good ol' US Post Office decides to do. *crosses fingers that they will come early...or at least ON TIME*

Now I'll probably listen to some RENT for a while. I like what I've heard thus far, though I'm still just piecing together the story. Really like "Light My Candle" though.

Hmm...Mama just sent me an email asking if I still wanted to go to Western (to help my cousin Stephanie move in for school). Huh. I didn't know it was a choice. No. I don't want to go. I haven't. But she was sort of pressuring and putting a lot of importance on it. And now she gives me a way out.

Do I take it? I can't seem to help feeling pitied though...


  • Current Music
    Think About Your Life, Pippin - Pippin

I'll sell you a story of a sorrowful man, had everything he wanted, didn't want what he had

Sent Mama an email saying that I didn't want to go to Western, but I'd still think about it, and that I'd be sure to go sometime during the year. Ha. Cause I'll have time for that...

Took a nap, but only for about a half hour. So not enough.

And I should shower soon.

But I now have 31 RENT songs downloaded and was listening to them this order. I think I'm really going to like it. I adore Mimi. Her songs, her character (gotta love those young junkies!), just her story in general.

New York is going to be fun. 31 days!

Yeah. Still tired. *sigh*
  • Current Music
    Simple Joys - Pippin