July 29th, 2002


Don't you know I've tried so hard to love you in my way?

I can't sleep.

I tried to. I've been tired all day. But my mind just won't shut off.

I guess there's a lot on my mind. So much that I've been crying. I just can't stop thinking. Everything is worrying me, and making me more jittery and anxious than I was already.

I suppose I'm my own worst enemy. I need to calm down.
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    Adia - Sarah McLachlan (in head)

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I finally got to bed last night after 2:30. :-\

But then I slept until noon. Woke up a few times in between (I don't remember the last time I slept soundly) but still. Noon is good.

I may make a post about my mother soon. It's going to be a long week. And I've already cried today. *sigh*
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    None. Must change that...
Alanis - Unsexy

Tell me that my lovin' didn't mean that much

And I was getting better.

I watched the last half of What's Love Got To Do With It. Angela Bassett is amazing. It was good. And I was feeling pretty good.

Then I get the world's bitchiest email from Amanda. I practically sobbed the entire time I was writing my response.

It's times like these that I wish my eyeliner was waterproof.

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    What It Takes - Aerosmith