July 22nd, 2002

Alanis - Unsexy

The circus is falling down on it's knees. The top is crumbling down

Sorry I keep posting so much. I guess I just have a lot on my mind and no other place to get it out at.

I ended up falling asleep for about an hour at Cici's. They finally came home around 12:30, so I left Ci my car keys and drove home with Mama and Daddy. Daddy leaves for work at 5:30am. Not getting home until nearly 1 is hard. I was crying in the car on the way home. Partially for him, partially because I am just in a weepy mood. The parents didn't notice.

Also, I think I'm only going to have the house to myself Saturday and Sunday. One night. I would be upset by this, but I don't know. I strangely understand. *sigh*

I wish I could go to sleep right now. As Jason said: "You should just crawl into your warm, comfy bed. Snuggle up with your Extra Large Valentina, and drift calmly into dreamland where things are, albeit more random, but less stressful." Yeah. That would be nice. But there's just too much in my head. And most of it I can't even pin point. It's there, but nothing specific.

I'm gonna have to talk to Mama soon. Things have just been so hectic lately. Maybe I'll email her tomorrow. The wussy way out, but whatever.

Didn't watch Evita yet. Oh well. What's one more broken weekend goal? At least I watched 9 episodes of West Wing. We might have another fest soon. This time so Allie can come.

Which reminds me, I need to call her about Navy Pier. We are going soon. Probably sometime this week. Maybe Friday? so that curfew is later and no one has work in the morning. I wonder if we are keeping it small (she, Candace and I are going as of now) or if we are inviting more people. More gets more hectic and makes planning a bitch. Case in point: Camping. Which I also need to get figured out.

*le sigh* So busy, and yet seemingly unbusy.

Oh, and Mama commented on me doing dishes. She was surprised. I just said: "They needed to be done." I wish she had more faith in me to be responsible.
  • Current Music
    Raining in Baltimore - Counting Crows (live)

Maybe she knows something I don't, I'm so tired of trying

I got a fair amount of sleep. Fair is not quite good, but without a car, I'm stuck here all day so a nap is possible.

Still contemplating going to lunch with Candace and Dorothy or not. Hmm...?

But I always have weird, fucked up Collapse )

Yes. Bizarre. And I'm really torn up about not having my car. Dammit. It's mine and I want it. *sigh* It's only a day. If I don't get it back tonight though, I may flip out irrationally.
  • Current Music
    Flake - Jack Johnson

With kings and things to take by storm as we go along our way


Yay! Best musical of all 4 years. (Well, I'm being a bit unfair in assuming Annie won't live up to Pippin. But...it won't.)

Today is boring. Already I've thought of a few things I would like to do, then realized I don't have my car. :( I'd really like to re-pot my Violet. It's not looking so good right now. Poor thing. Needs new soil.

Had a missed call on my cell phone when I was in the shower. It was Zoe (friend-Zoe, not niece-Zoe). She didn't leave a message, but I called her back anyway. Just in case. She had a question about Senior Pictures and had already talked to Candace. Oh well, if I hadn't called, I would have been paranoid.

Also, the Teddy Graham Bearwiches which had disappeared last week and reappeared on Saturday, are now gone. :( I ate the last two. So good. Just like crack.

That was a joke, but the way. And I need to go do something productive before my head explodes.

Side notes: "Jubilant" is a mood icon that no one uses enough. And it's strange to only have 8 icons. Strange but oddly good.
  • Current Music
    Magic to Do - cast of Pippin

You let down your people, Evita. You were supposed to have been immortal

My computers are now communist!

Okay, so no. But I moved all my mp3s from my computer to the new one. Because they are networked, I can listen to them anyway from either computer.

My computer: 7 of 12 GB used (was at 11)
New computer: 11.7 of 33.3 GB used.

I think it was a good idea. Now both have plenty of room on them. Yay for making everything more equal.

Yeah. This post makes no sense. I'm sorry.
  • Current Music
    Oh What a Circus - Che (Evita...movie version)
Alanis - Unsexy

As the mirror told his tale

Huh. I just got of the phone with Candace and she sounded a bit upset. I didn't ask her what was wrong, and I'm sort of regretting it now. I'm not really in the mood to cheer anyone up. Hell, I probably need cheering up myself. But I still feel really bad that I didn't ask. Hopefully it doesn't have to do with the fact that she didn't drop Dorothy off at Lewis' on time. That would just be yucky.

Maybe I'll call Allie and see what she's up to tonight. We might end up playing my new Trivial Pursuit. It's exciting. *sigh* Maybe we'll go to her house. Her mom and sister are both out of town, so it's just her and her dad. Hmm...

So much ambition, so little follow through. I probably won't call her.
  • Current Music
    Whiter Shade of Pale - Cream

Lonely as I am, together we cry

Fuck it.

I don't have a car again tomorrow. Grrr...

And Nikki is apparently mad at me. And camping is screwed up. And Allie might not be able to go.

And ARG!!!!!!!


I should really have learned to live with disappointment by now. It still sucks every time though.
  • Current Music
    Under the Bridge - Red Hot Chili Peppers