July 17th, 2002

...dreamers

I go out everynight and sleep all day, since you took your love away

Well. Last night was fun.

Actually, the concert was pretty okay. I love sitting on Ravinia lawn because you just bring a crap load of food and blankets and sit around and talk the whole time.

The only thing I don't like is how it doesn't feel like you are at a concert, because you can't see anything. They could have been playing a CD over the speakers for all I know.

It's also funny because you are in the middle of the North Shore, so there are all these adults (mostly adults, in fact. Older. Not like 20's, but like 40's) sitting around drinking wine and eating cheese on french bread. Then there are the college students who sit around getting drunk on beer.

Either way, it's a lot of fun. And there was this mega hottie near us. Not my type, but still gorgeous.

Then the badness started and all went downhill. We left around 10:45 (right after 'Runaround') to try and beat the crowds that would be staying for the encore. And Rob had to be home by curfew because his mother is insane. So I high-tailed it out of there.

I don't know. I just got really upset, and down, and I ended up crying for about an hour. I was bitchy and cynical, and just generally felt really alone. And all was bad.

I basically cried myself to sleep around 1, and woke up this morning at 9.

I'm going to look fantastic in Senior Pictures today. And I can't decide if I should do the 7 pose, one outfit set, or the 11 pose, two outfit set. I'd like to do the 11 pose, because some are full body and I think that would be fun, but I don't know what to wear for my second outfit. It was hard enough finding a first outfit.

Bah. I still have 3 and a half hours to decide.
  • Current Music
    Nothing Compares to You - Sinade O'Connor
Pink - Not your kind of girl

If I could make it rain today, I'd wash away this sunny day down to the gutter...

...just to get a change of pace. Things are getting worse, but I feel a lot better.

Good song.

I've pretty much decided on the one outfit, 7 poses option. It's cheaper and I don't have another outfit I want to wear. So now I'm just waiting until 1 when I can start the hour long getting ready process. I'll probably be ready by 1:15 and be sitting bored for over a half an hour, but whatever. I need something to do.

I'm so tired, but I don't want to lay down because I'll mess up my hair (which is less than cooperating anyway. Grr...) so I'm forcing myself awake.

I'm not in the mood for pictures.
  • Current Music
    Amy Hit the Atmosphere - Counting Crows
...dreamers

You walk behind me and I don't think I can lead

Camping: Makes everyone into bitches. We are all fed up, but someone needs to take control.

Now it's up to me. Do I...a) go the weekend I want to so that I can have the house to myself the weekend before, and so that we have 6 instead of 7 people. Or b) go the weekend that others want to, despite my rejection toward it and the fact that we will have too many people. And that it's a week away and we have done shit to prepare.

Fuck me.

If my eyes weren't so dry from last night, I'd probably be bawling again.

...

But Senior pictures are over. A lot better than I assumed. The photographer was extremely nice too.

And I'm going to go up to Cici's to take some of the pictures I took with her camera and shrink them down from the HUGE ASS RESOLUTION they were on. I uploaded a few to the new website and it was bigger than a fucking background. And I don't like seeing myself that huge.

So yes. Off to Cici's. Cut myself off from everyone who's pissing me off, with any luck.
  • Current Music
    Dizzy - Tabitha's Secret
...dreamers

But now I know life doesn't always go my way

Alright, so I uploaded a bunch of pictures of me, my friends, and my room at my new website.

There's not much there, but feel free to play around.

Go here!

[/shameless plug]

Oh, and this is also a GIP. Yeah, I'm crazy. And yes, that's me. I don't know how long this will last...I might have to get rid of it soon. But for now. I have an icon. With myself on it. Acting crazy. Yeah.
  • Current Music
    Not a Girl, Not Yet a Woman - Britney Spears
...dreamers

I'm supergirl, and I'm here to save the world, but I wanna know, who's gonna save me?

Well, Mama is insane. She wanted me to do the biggest package for Senior Pictures. 3 outfits, and 17 poses. For $40.

I went with the quick and painless, 5 minute, $15, 7 headshot one.

Eck, whatever.

...

Still amused by my icon. It's frickin' funny.

...

For the next 4 nights, I will be trapped at home with small child. I must make the most out of my last night of freedom until next Monday. I should call Candace. She's not answering her away message. Silly sleeping girl.

...

And finally, ALLIE COMES HOME TOMORROW! Whee!!! It's about friggin' time!
  • Current Music
    Supergirl - Krystal