May 21st, 2002

...dreamers

You're setting me up, then I'm letting you down

Can I tell you how fucking pissed I am?

I had a schedule conflict with my classes next year.

Correction: I had about three.

Two were minor and easy to fix.

One is a fucking bitch.

Company (Theatre 5,6) is 3rd period.
So is AP Environmental Science.

Okay, so why not move APES to periods 7 and 8, the other time it's offered? Because AP Stats is only offered 7th or 8th, and AP English 3rd and 8th.

Fuck. Fuck. Fuck. Fuck. Fuck. Fuck. Fuck. Fuck. Fuck. Fuck. Fuck. Fuck. Fuck. Fuck. Fuck. Fuck. Fuck. Fuck. Fuck. Fuck. Fuck. Fuck. Fuck. Fuck. Fuck. Fuck. Fuck. Fuck. Fuck. Fuck. Fuck. Fuck. Fuck. Fuck. Fuck. Fuck. Fuck. Fuck. Fuck. Fuck. Fuck. Fuck. Fuck. Fuck. Fuck. Fuck. Fuck. Fuck. Fuck. Fuck. Fuck. Fuck. Fuck. Fuck. Fuck. Fuck. Fuck. Fuck. Fuck. Fuck. Fuck. Fuck. Fuck. Fuck. Fuck.

And I told my counselor that Theatre is the most important thing to me on that schedule. If I'm not in Company, I can't be a Senior Teacher. You know what? That's not even and "if" statement....

I WILL NOT BE DROPPING THEATRE. No way is hell. Absolutely not. Nuh-uh, go sell your devil worship somewhere else.

So then I'm choosing between APES and AP Stats/AP Eng.
If I take APES, then I'll have to take level 2 Discrete Math and level 2 English.
If I take AP Stats and AP English, then I'm basically screwed on science.

The thing is, I need Science. I only have 2 and a half years, and most colleges want 3 years. I need Math. 4 years of it. I need 4 years of English just to graduate, let alone get in to college. Besides, if I'm going to be an English teacher, I better have taken English classes.

Fuck!

If I could drop any of them, I would in a heart beat. If I could not take math, I would. Hell, my sister Fayanne has never taken a Calculus course in her entire life. I've already taken it. Can't I call it quits? I got fucking screwed over by taking Geometry in 8th grade.

Fuck being smart!!!!! This is just pure shit!

It's not even the "being smart" part though. It's that apparently you can't be smart AND be involved in Fine Arts.
Classes that interfere with Company:
-AP Environmental Science
-AP English
-AP Bio
-AP Chem

And American Foreign Policy is the same period as Chorale.

I told my counselor that I'm not dropping Chorus either.

Marie Antoinette was wrong. You can't have your cake. Especially if you want to eat it, too.
  • Current Music
    Heavy - Stretch Princess
...dreamers

And they'll take to him like cats to cream.

Well, I did it again.

I laid down on my bed. To relax a bit. Fell asleep. I fell asleep for not one, not two, not three, but close to four hours.

And when I woke up, I was honestly confused as to what day it was, and if it were morning yet, or still night. Damn Summer. 7:45 is light at am and pm.

I hate feeling so discombobulated though. It throws me off.

And if you haven't noticed, one of the ways I combat is anger is to sleep. Well...I guess there are more dangerous ways to go about that.


After I eat dinner, I have to run out to Target. I need a plain black, nice looking cardigan to wear over my formal dress for tomorrow's chorus concert. Last one of the year. I'm excited.

I need to get a move on, if stores close at 9.
  • Current Music
    Wheels of a Dream - Ragtime (in my head)
Alanis - Unsexy

Come on and lick it

Damn Journal! It ate my post.

Read-only my ass!!

Anywho, Target was a no go. No cardigans.

Considered the mall. There wasn't enough time.

I only have until 5:50 tomorrow to find something to cover my arms. Akers told us we couldn't have bare shoulders.

Eck.
  • Current Music
    The "Lick It" song from Celeste's songvid is in my head