May 7th, 2002


Is there something that you're trying to say?

First and foremost...

Happy Birthday, Kino!!!

Hope you have a fantastic day!!


AP Calculus exam. Well? It's over.

It wasn't too bad. I mean, it sucked, but wasn't horrible. It helps that most other people found it to be ungodly difficult. Also helps that it doesn't effect my grade in anyway. But I hope I get some college credit out of it. Especially for $78.


French test that I didn't study for?

Eh, bad. Made me realize a couple times that I really need to get a job this summer. Money's getting tight. Quickly. But besides the point...

I also found a bunny hopping around the test, just waiting to be written down. So I've been in a writing mood lately, and I have an idea. Good.


Tonight at 5-ish, I'm going to school for an AWARE meeting. From 5 until 7, we are having dinner and meeting with Haggai (still don't know his last name, but at least I have a first). Then at 7, he will be doing his presentation and telling his story in the Auditorium.

I'm hoping everything goes well.


Cici, regarding the job thing.

I got your e-mail and will need to think about it. It shouldn't be a problem, but I'll get back to you.


Now I have a half an hour to:
A) get bunny down on paper
B) write English essay
C) eat Cheetoes
D) options A and C

Hee hee....
  • Current Music
    Mourning - Tantric

It's bitter, it tastes a lot like winter and will it release me?



So tonight was the AWARE thing that I've talked about. We had an Israeli boy, Haggai, speak.

God, just the amount of hatred. Bitter and ... just hatred. People came in with the purpose of tearing this kid apart, because he believes in peace and they believe in Israel.

His main point that I saw and heard was that no one is to blame for the violence. No one specifically, at least. Palestinian suicide bombers are raised to hate the Israeli's, not because they are taking their land, or because they are from Israel, but because that's what they see. It's all around them in occupied territories. They see hatred, they see the Israeli Army raiding their villages and taking relief food and aid.

He talked about a vicious cycle. Israel feels the need to protect itself against these attacks, but the attacks are sprung from mistreatment of Palestinians by Israel.

The actual presentation went relatively well. AWARE decided to have any questions submitted on a note card to avoid an "interrogation" or debate. It helped the emphasis to stay on his ideas of peace rather than defending political standing. We only had a couple incidents of yelling out, mostly by this one woman, who basically scared me from the beginning. Just so set in her ways.

At the end though, half the audience (which was about 1/3 of our auditorium - well over a hundred people. Maybe two) basically rushed to the stage.

It was an angry mob out for the kill.

Once those dissenters were given the chance, they said horrible things. "I hope he doesn't think he's getting out of here alive". Fuck people. What the hell? This one woman spoke directly to Haggai, saying that her son was in the Army and was going to die for selfish people like him.

He was talking about peace. That's all he wants.

Eyal was our AWARE member to pose questions to Haggai, and frankly, he was pretty harsh. Obviously, which questions he asked was up to him, and out of the list of 30 some, he picked political ones. Eyal is an Israeli-American Jew (which he didn't fail to mention a couple times) and also openly stated that he was against Haggai's decision to not serve in the Army.

When we started bringing audience questions in, we took Eyal off and rotated between Steve, Steph, and Betsy, who all did wonderfully. Betsy was the last to speak and gave a small closing thanking everyone for their respect and questions and for coming out tonight. The problem woman started to yell something so Betsy repeated "THANK you for being so respectful."

After a couple minutes, we had security guard Pete (huge ripped guy, very nice too) come and escort him out. All that did was take the attention off Haggai directly and parents and students just started yelling among themselves and talking and arguing. Israeli support was definitely the majority, and those defending peace struggled to keep away from the conflict.

As part of AWARE and being a peace supported, I honestly felt like the bad guy. Like I was wrong and I too should be hated. It was exhausting.

As a side note, Haggai is one of the nicest people ever. I mean, he's 18, the age of most of my peers, and is completely a normal person. Except that he is standing up for what he believes in. He goes on convoys to occupied Palestine areas and stands up against the injustices there by not joining in the Army. But he's just such a normal person. His convictions have just taken him farther than most.

It was an incredible evening, and I'm so glad I got to go. I'm even more glad that I went as a member of AWARE, and was able to talk in a more intimate setting for an hour before he spoke in front of a larger audience.
  • Current Music
    Fortress - Sister Hazel

I had to walk away, down the road just to clear my head.



"Microsoft Word has insufficient memory to save the document. Would you like is saved as a Recovered Document?" 12 GB hard drive.

11.9 GB used.

I have 165 MB of room.


I can't have more than two programs running at the same time. Winamp, Outlook and Word can all be supported, but once you add Internet Explorer, Word goes kaput.


Perhaps some of my 882 mp3s will have to be trashed. Just a thought though, I'm not quite sure about it.
  • Current Music
    Thank You - Sister Hazel