April 3rd, 2002

...dreamers

When you're weary, feeling small, When tears are in your eyes, I will dry them all

Often times I post, and it's more like a "here's a look at what's going on in Gail's life" in a play-by-play commentary, rather than anything that would belong in a journal.

Sure, I occasionally have those entries that really define a journal, and that really reach insight, though usually it's just "Then I took a shower. Yay."

However, if ever there was an insightful entry that has a right to be in a journal about my life, this one would be it.

I had decided to go to bed, and lying there a little over an hour ago, I remembered that Allie had written me a letter over Spring Break in response to the plane letter I gave her before she left. Having had no luck sleeping, I get up, turn on lights and find the letter.

There are times when I forget how much my friends mean to me, and there are times I forget why Allie is my best friend in the entire world, and then I read something as trivial as a letter, and I end up in tears. There was nothing overly important in the written words, as far as plot, but I had written about doubts I had. Fears and regrets, confusion and random thoughts of a teenaged girl, ninth period before Spring Break. And she responded with three pages of encouragement and insight and help and love that just overwhelms me. It's not like she was even trying to do something nice or go out of her way. She just decided to comfort me and being one of the only people to truly know me, inside and out, better than anyone else that I know, she could understand me.

Immediately I found a pen and paper in a desperate need to write back. Again, nothing of immense substance, but my thoughts that always come back to me, filtered and making sense. She ended her letter with lyrics from the song "The Rose" by Bette Midler, and I shall end mine with "Bridge Over Troubled Water" because that's how I feel. That she is just always there for me, no matter how school and sports and life may interfere and distance us.

God, right now I'm tired, but feel amazing. I guess it was just one of those "right time, right place" things because I had begun to feel extremely distanced from most of the people in my life. We are all just too busy and I hate that. But maybe my dreaded month of April will prove helpful is stopping that.

Bridge Over Troubled Water
When you're weary, feeling small,
When tears are in your eyes, I will dry them all;
I'm on your side. When times get rough
And friends just can't be found,
Like a bridge over troubled water
I will lay me down.
Like a bridge over troubled water
I will lay me down.

When you're down and out,
When you're on the street,
When evening falls so hard
I will comfort you.
I'll take your part.
When darkness comes
And pains is all around,
Like a bridge over troubled water
I will lay me down.
Like a bridge over troubled water
I will lay me down.

Sail on silvergirl,
Sail on by.
Your time has come to shine.
All your dreams are on their way.
See how they shine.
If you need a friend
I'm sailing right behind.
Like a bridge over troubled water
I will ease your mind.
Like a bridge over troubled water
I will ease your mind.
  • Current Music
    Bridge Over Troubled Water (in head) - Simon and Garfunkel
...dreamers

I've seen fire and I've seen rain. I've seen sunny days that I thought would never end

*ahem*

*clears throat*

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SQUEEEEEEE!!!!!!

It completely just hit me that TOMORROW IS THE NSYNC CONCERT!!!! Pretty, sparkly, dancing boys!!!! Two nights in a row!!!!

EEEEEEEEEEEEEEE!!!!!!!!!!

I am so freaking excited!!!!!

Ci!! What are the plans? You want to pick me up from school at 6 and go then? It's at Allstate, right? So it won't take too long to get there?

*squee!!*

Ilovethemsomuch!!



Okay, done with that. *wipes forehead* That was exhausting. Today was pretty good.
History test initial grade: 81%
History grade after curve: 92%
All things should work out like that.

And, and, and...whoa, I need to calm down. *deep breath* English was basically another blow off, though my group had a fun time debating whether Catherine and Lt. Henry are in love.

And, okay, so nothing else is coming to mind as being good. Eh.

I'm still freakin' excited!! And so bouncy!!! TOMORROW!!!!!!!!!!
  • Current Music
    Fire and Rain - James Taylor; Sunny Came Home
Alanis - Unsexy

I learned how to kiss on a ferris wheel, and I made wishes at wishing wells

and I fell into that fairy tale too.
And now I know that love ain't so easy,
But we tried, didn't we baby?
It's alright. Some dreams weren't meant to come true.
I learned that from you.



Have made an executive level decision.
Am taking a short nap.
Then watching West Wing.
Then maybe try to start homework before going to bed.
*nods* Yup.

(Have stopped using subjects. Uh-oh...)
  • Current Music
    I Learned That From You - Sara Evans
...dreamers

Silver cities rise, the morning lights the streets that lead them

I have been so productive tonight! That is...if you don't count homework, which I haven't started.

First, I read my friends page. Then I updated twice. Took a nap. Woke up in time for West Wing. (WOOOO!!!!!) Took a shower. Realized I had next to no shampoo left. Went to Target. Bought 2 boxes of Ritz Bits Sandwiches (Peanut Butter) because they were 2 for $4. Also got a 12 pack of Diet Sierra Mist. I figure I drink enough soda to kill a small rodent, why not try to make it a bit healthier? Also a 12 pack of AA batteries...for my diskman because I keep putting off buying a car kit. Oh yeah, and a huge bottle of shampoo/conditioner. Finesse Plus makes the world go round.

So now I'm home, eating Ritz Bits Sandwiches (Peanut Butter), sipping my water and feeling really, really good.

I swear, it has nothing to do with the fact that in 24 hours at this time, I will be seeing NSYNC. And at 48 hours from this exact moment, I will be seeing NSYNC. Nope. Nothing at all to do with that. Or that Sassy keeps talking about the concert and how great it was. Or that "Gone" was playing in the workout room during gym today.

Nope. Not at all. I'm completely unaware of those facts. I am merely a happy individual. *smiles and nods*

Note: Peanut Butter and Finesse Plus make the world go round. *munches Ritz happily*
  • Current Music
    New Jerusalem; Building a Mystery - Sarah McLachlan
Kate Hudson - Lady

I hate it when you call, which isn't at all

It seems as though the day has drawn to an end. The delicate finishing touches have been added and now it is time for all to rest.

As such, I feel that I shall go to bed. Having spent enough time awake, and time enough working, I will now cast an end to my own day by sleeping comfortably in a warm bed.

Goodnight moon.
  • Current Music
    Thanks That Was Fun - Barenaked Ladies