January 4th, 2002

...dreamers

*sigh* It's going to be one of those days...

I woke up late. Around 1:30-ish. I haven't showered yet. I wouldn't have eaten, except that Fayanne just brought home Panera for lunch.

I realize that when school starts again, there is no way in hell that I can get 10 hours of sleep a night. And the fact that I'm probably going to have to go back to about 5, plus tacking on actual work (both school, home, and activities)...I'm not ready.

It makes me so upset everytime I think about school starting. To the point where I feel sick and honestly don't want to go. I have such a feeling of dread. And I just don't want to do anything. I shouldn't feel like this. I shouldn't want to throw up everytime I think of school. I shouldn't be bawling my eyes out right now.


I'm sorry for that. *wipes at tears* I'll stop now.

In a little bit, I'm going to Cici's to set her VCR for the Daily Show with Elijah. Then I might just stay there for a while. I have to be back home by about 5:15, so I can be at her place as late as 5.

Tonight we have our January Birthday dinner. Cici's birthday was yesterday, and Fayanne's is tomorrow, so the dinner is tonight. Bennigans. Just had it for lunch yesterday, but who am I to complain. It isn't my dinner.

I have to shower soon. I'm such a fucking slacker. I should have been doing homework today. What have I gotten accomplished? I left random comments in people's journals. Dammit. Where the hell is my motivation? Why can't I do anything right?? AHHHHH!!!!!
  • Current Music
    American Town - Five For Fighting (in my head)
...dreamers

I never thought I'd end up here, never Thought I'd be standing where I am

Sick Cycle Carousel - Lifehouse

if shame had a face I think it would kind of look like mine
if it had a home would it be my eyes
would you believe me if I said I am tired of this
now here we go now one more time

I tried to climb your steps
I tried to chase you down
I tried to see how low I could get down to the ground
I tried to earn my way
I tried to change this mind
you better believe I tried to beat this

when will this end it goes on and on
over and over and over again
keep spinning around I know it won't stop
till I step down from this for good

I never thought I'd end up here I never
thought I'd be standing where I am
I guess I kind of thought it would be easier than this
I guess I was wrong now one more time

I tried to climb your steps
I tried to chase you down
I tried to see how low I could get down to the ground
I tried to earn my way
I tried to change this mind
you better believe I tried to beat this

so when will this end it goes on and on
over and over and over again
keep spinning around I know it won't stop
till I step down from this

this is a sick cycle carousel this is a sick cycle, yeah
sick cycle carousel this is a sick cycle

so when will this end it goes on and on
over and over and over again
keep spinning around I know it won't stop
till I step down from this for good

when will this end it goes on and on
over and over and over again
keep spinning around I know it won't stop
till I step down from this for good
  • Current Mood
    depressed depressed
...dreamers

Where the hell...?

...is everyone?

That is all.

I'm tired and might go to bed soon. I've been up less than 9 hours *sighs*

Okay, now that's all.

EDIT: Ci, this is my new Lance icon from the CosmoGirl cover.

Okay, now that is all.
  • Current Music
    Feels Like Home - Chantal Kreviakuz