August 7th, 2001

...dreamers

I'm not sure how to title this. I was going to leave it blank, but then I started to type. Damn.

I may have mentioned in passing have to call people and organize a meeting for Tuesday night. Here's the deal: Eric, our stage crew supervisor and friend, asked me (me personally, made me feel really responsible and important) to put together a meeting of the entire crew (about 50 people) at a restaurant. So, wow, I felt honored and asked to take on some assistants (since I hate calling people, my phone-a-phobia thing). Nikki and I decided on the place, I made reservations, and Nikki, JC and I have been calling and e-mailing people since Friday to put this thing together.

So now I feel really bad, because I told the place we would need a party room for 30 to 40 people (I expected some not to come), and now the list is at about 15. I think I can get 25, which is still a big group, but I feel stupid because I was responsible for putting this all together, and less than half the people on the original list can come. Not that I mind smaller groups, I actually prefer them. I have a some-what large personality and it's easier to take in small groups where it doesn't feel like I'm shutting out anyone. Maybe it's all in my head, but it makes me feel better.

Anyway, I feel really bad about the whole meeting thing, and I hope it works out better than I'm thinking it will. I hope people bring enough money, because I can tell you for damn sure that I'm not picking up a several hundred dollar restaurant bill. And, I'm hoping they won't charge too much extra for the room and tip. Irritating. :o(

All my e-mails lately have been from Nikki about this stupid meeting. Nothing fun. No Live Journal comments. I guess I haven't been quarky enough. I'm been off lately. As evidence, check my moods in recent entries. Blah, blank, nothing overly good. They used to be cheerful, happy and chipper. I'm in a rut and wish I knew how to get out. I don't feel overly depressed, and I still laugh and have fun when I'm out with my friends (like tonight). I just wish I felt better other times. Maybe the stress that I proclaimed myself to have is contributing or causing this. First the bridal shower (when aren't huge family functions stressful?) and now the planning of this meeting, so impromptu-like. Bah.

Caitlin was called into work today, which is why she couldn't hang out with me. She said she's free Wednesday and Thursday, so she'll probably come one or both of those days. Went to Old Orchard today with Fayanne. Neither Hawthorn or Northbrook Court, with better stores than both. However, it's outdoor (and it was HOT today, like all the rest. The "excessive heat warnings" are in effect again. No outside playing for child) and the sales tax is over 8%. What a rip. Blah.

Nothing more to say really. Sorry for being so boring, but I need sleep now. Sleep can make me feel better, right? My jaw still hurts. Wonder what's really wrong. Oh well, I can deal with it. It isn't overly painful.

:::My Music Selection of the Evening:::
*Spotlight - Dexter Freebish
*You Were Mine - Dixie Chicks
*Enough of Me - Melissa Etheridge
*Dream On - Depeche Mode
*You Don't See Me - Josie and the Pussycats (from soundtrack...so good, makes me cry)
*Loss & Strain & Butterflies - Tabitha's Secret (Matchbox 20)
*You & I & I - Matchbox 20
  • Current Music
    Playlist is after entry (obviously).
...dreamers

I think it's not just me...

A quick note before bed...while surfing around journals, lots of people seem to be in ruts. Family troubles, work issues, school, bad days in general. I hate bad days. Make me cry. I hate crying, especially around people. Blah.

I hope we can all start having some better days soon. There's no where to go but up (well, not true, things could get a ton worse, but we can hope).
  • Current Music
    Anything But Down - Sheryl Crow
...dreamers

Personality Disorder Test - I must really have problems

Disorder Rating
Paranoid: Low
Schizoid: Low
Schizotypal: Moderate
Antisocial: Moderate
Borderline: Low
Histrionic: Very High
Narcissistic: High
Avoidant: Moderate
Dependent: Low
Obsessive-Compulsive: High

Click Here to Take This Test

Wow, now I could have told you I was rather obsessive-compulsive, and avoidant. I would have that dependant would be higher and antisocial lower. After reading the description for histrionic, I guess I would agree, but I wouldn't say it's very high.
  • Current Music
    none...hmm, must remedy that
...dreamers

Mental Lapse

I had something to say, I really did. But now? *Poof gone*. Hmmm, retrace my thoughts...
  • downloading an mp3 to burn onto a CD
  • talking to Nikki and Cici on AIM
  • trying to find a babysitter for Thursday so Cici and I can go to Louisville and see NSYNC (or however many members decide they will show up)
  • Damn, it's totally gone.

    Crap. I hate having my mother's mind.

    Child slept late today. She just woke up at about 11:30. It was kinda nice, cus I haven't had to do anything all morning. Phone keeps ringing, stupid phone, but both Fayanne and Emily are here, so they pick it up. Child now wondered downstairs and started to touch everything she could. Leave room now...if only she could read.

    Must go make the little princess lunch now. The clock turns 12:00 and automatically she's starving. Bah, I'll be back later. Maybe I'll remember what I was going to say before.
    • Current Music
      Girl Like That (live) - Matchbox 20
    ...dreamers

    I'm Back!!!

    Bad moods are *poof gone*. I think it was in reading the responses between my sister, Cici, and allen_sama, as they were discusing the upcoming Louisville show. I'm so excited. Anyway, I started to *squee* and all of a sudden, felt better. It was weird. Anyway, I'm out of my rut now, and feeling 10 hundred times better.

    So, I just left a comment with LiveJournal user JCs_fluff. I couldn't help myself...I love the hair. I will defend it to the death. (I have already on some occasions.) He just looks so hot with the long and poofy and highlighted...*squee* I love JC.

    I just used so many links. Geez. Now that I'm in a good mood, I think I'm going to go take a shower and sing obscenely loud. (One of my favorite hobbies. That should be on my interests list...must update that now.)

    I will be back apres je me lave. Au revoir! *french air kisses*

    ::Music::
    *Spin Around - Josie and the Pussycats
    *Outside (live, feat. Fred Durst & Limp Biskut) - Staind
    *Drops of Jupiter - Train (sooo good in concert)
    *Come to My Window - Melissa Etheridge
    • Current Music
      everything, baby. Music plays in my head 24-7
    ...dreamers

    *Breathe* AHHHH!!!

    Okay, so this is the greatest thing ever (even before sliced bread). I was *squee*-ing for the entire 6:35. Now I know you want to know what I'm talking about (hell, you may have already seen it, but it's new to me). NSYNC Celebrity interview thing. It's soooooo great!

    Jup: We're back
    Chris: Yeah, we're back
    Lance: We're back
    Joey: Kind of, yeah *giggle*
    JC: *pause* We never left

    Lance: We're not making fun of celebrities, um, we're just, okay, we're poking fun at celebrities.

    Chris: Us four are idiots, Justin's not.
    Justin: I'll agree with that.


    They are so great. So fun, so human, so down to earth. I love them so much. Yea boys!! Priceless!