I realize that when school starts again, there is no way in hell that I can get 10 hours of sleep a night. And the fact that I'm probably going to have to go back to about 5, plus tacking on actual work (both school, home, and activities)...I'm not ready.
It makes me so upset everytime I think about school starting. To the point where I feel sick and honestly don't want to go. I have such a feeling of dread. And I just don't want to do anything. I shouldn't feel like this. I shouldn't want to throw up everytime I think of school. I shouldn't be bawling my eyes out right now.
I'm sorry for that. *wipes at tears* I'll stop now.
In a little bit, I'm going to Cici's to set her VCR for the Daily Show with Elijah. Then I might just stay there for a while. I have to be back home by about 5:15, so I can be at her place as late as 5.
Tonight we have our January Birthday dinner. Cici's birthday was yesterday, and Fayanne's is tomorrow, so the dinner is tonight. Bennigans. Just had it for lunch yesterday, but who am I to complain. It isn't my dinner.
I have to shower soon. I'm such a fucking slacker. I should have been doing homework today. What have I gotten accomplished? I left random comments in people's journals. Dammit. Where the hell is my motivation? Why can't I do anything right?? AHHHHH!!!!!