My mom asked me if I'd want to get braces. Since about 6th grade, I've wanted them, because after 3 years of laughing at my friends whom had the horrible metal contraptions in their mouths, they were beginning to have straight teeth. I envied that.
My teeth are far from straight. And I have gaps. And a massive overbite (and no, massive isn't an overstatement...it's about a full centimeter gap between top and bottom teeth). I also have front buck teeth. Basically, my mouth is a disaster area.
Of course, through my awkward junior high years, I wanted so much to have a beautiful smile, and in a totally vain and self-obsessive manner, hated my mouth. In the latter years, and recently, I've learned to live my imperfections and realized that smiling with not-so-great teeth, is better than not smiling at all. I still get really self-conscious though, like when I see a candid photo of myself because my teeth never look right, and I overall just look stupid.
Now I have an opportunity to fix the flaws. But I don't know. I'm conflicted.
1.) None of my siblings got braces. Well, Ci has them now, but she's paying for them. She would have had them when she was younger, but then I was born.
2.) I'm going to have all sort of contraptions in my mouth for the next few years. Years. I will graduate with braces. I will go off to college with braces. And some people can pull of the braces look. I don't think I'll be able to.
3.) I think the second one basically covered it. I want straight teeth, yes. But I don't want the pain and hideousness that comes with having metal jammed in every open crevice in my mouth.
Maybe I'll ask mommy if we can just go and get the situation checked out. See how long it would take. How much money it would be. I'd rather have an out-of-state college education than straight teeth, I think. I don't know.
I honestly can't figure out if I do or do not want this. I should really take the opportunity since it's given to me, but...I don't know. I just...don't know. I feel like I'm too old for this. But I definitely don't want to be getting braces at age 30 or 40.
Why couldn't this have come along 7 years ago?