Gail (gailmarie) wrote,

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"I could drown in all this clutter, I suppose..."

While I was babysitting for Zoe tonight, my mom called my cell to let me know that they were home. She also had to mention how impressed she was that I cleaned my room and did laundry. This sort of thing totally bothers me, because she basically thinks that I usually do nothing. I get a lot accomplished in a day, even if it isn't physically noticeable. Grrr....Discussions with mommy never leave me happy.

I continue on my way through homework. Had just started Calculus (Cici had gotten home by then), and Allie calls my cell. Ben, her homecoming date, asked her out, so now she has a boyfriend. And Nikki is still dating JC. And Peter might ask Amanda out. And I feel totally and completely left out. But, ya know what? I don't care. Honestly, it would be nice to have a boyfriend, but I'm not going to obsess over it. It won't make my life any easier. If anything, it will add a whole new layer of stress and complications. Don't need that right now. I'd rather be alone, thank you.

It's like I told Allie, I didn't do anything overly thrilling this weekend, but it was good. Just because it wasn't bad. And I never felt like "oh, it's Homecoming tonight. Everyone is out partying." I didn't really care. I was content with staying home. I had the option to party, and turned it down. I was in a "me" mood. Not self-obsessed and egotistical, just not overly social. And it worked for me. I honestly don't regret staying home.

So now I'm home. In my clean room. Preparing myself for the horror that is Calculus. Hoping I can figure out what to do. We had a two question pop quiz on Friday that I thought I got one of the questions right on, but now I'm thinking I didn't get either. And if he actually counts it as worth something, it's going to bring down my already-waining grade. I honestly don't know what my grade is at this point. I'm hoping for a C, but I can't get a C. I just can't. I never have before, and I refuse to start now...

Shit. I'm not going to cry over a fucking math class. I'm not going to complain about it either. I apologize. I hate venting so much about this. So I will stop.

On the Line opens Friday! *smiles through the tears* That's a good thing. Definitely. The soundtrack will be released on Tuesday. Tuesday is also the Family Values Tour in Indiana. I want to go so bad, it's not even funny.

Music is so totally my outlet. I love concerts. I need concerts. I buy CDs every chance I get. That's all I spend money on. CDs and the occasional DVD. I was listening to my new Sara Evans CD on the way home. She has such an incredible voice. It's beautiful. Country, yes, but very good.

Okay, I have to get to work. I'll update before bed...because I want to. :o)

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