Anyway, it's basically down to being healthy or not. Being studious or not. Biological needs versus my conscience. I don't know.
I wrote a kick-ass journal entry for english. It was basically a response to my feelings over the past week, so I had a lot to say. Honestly, my prompt that I chose was on this quote"
"Only today matters. The past? Who cares. If you don't like where you are, literally or metaphorically, well, pick up stakes and move. There's plenty of land out there. Change your address, change your name, change your history. Who you were, or what you did yesterday, doesn't matter."
This is *exactly* what I've been saying. I don't want to be here. What I wouldn't give to just get up and go right now. Change my name, location, future. Start over. I'm too young to feel like I should be starting over, and I think that's the scariest part of it all.
I really have to get some sleep, and maybe I'll study a bit too. I don't know yet. Spontaneity is a wonderful thing.